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A year, 6 months, 5 days

Around 8am at Leonardo Da Vinci International Airport, when i first step inside the airport I feel something different. The nostalgic feeling that I can't hide. I was there because I want to say goodbye to my Dad because he will go back in our hometown. I don't know why, but I don't like going to the Philippines. I just wanna go there to see my beloved Aunt & Uncle who've been my 2nd parents since I was 2 years old. But now I'm 20, it's hard to not to look back to what they've done to us. I really love 'em.

After sipping latte machiato, a hot croissant & an hour of gira its time to say Ciao & kiss goodbye.
It will be a rough month for us because my Dad do everything. and now, Its my duty to do those things.

We all 4 will go to the Philippines on 2010, for sure. So its gonna be a long long way.
Right now, I'm enjoying traveling in Europe. Next stop, Berlin, Germany & on Christmas I'm gonna spend my holiday in Sweden. ;)

FUN FUN FUNNNN!

(UPDATED)I CAN'T STOP...

watching SHELTER, WTF!!!!!
ive been watching if for 12 times,ugh!

i cant fcukin help it. :]

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mi sono inammorato dinuovo

I just finished watching Shelter, and i really need to blog this as soon as i can.

"Shelter is a drama movie about a man with his dream. Forced to give up his dreams of art school, Zach spends his days working a dead-end job and helping his needy sister care for her son. In his free time he surfs, draws and hangs out with his best friend, Gabe, who lives on the wealthy side of town. When Gabe’s older brother, Shaun, returns home, he is drawn to Zach’s selflessness and talent. Zach falls in love with Shaun while struggling to reconcile his own desires with the needs of his family." - www.thesupermovie.com

Lately Ive been searching for a good gay film. Its kinda lame but i like gay serious love story in particular.
I found this one & I'm curious about the story, its not like a typical gay story. I watch this film because:

1. the setting was in San Pedro somewhere in California. I want to live in California to death. :)
when i heard the word California, 4 things comes in my mind: beach, Hollywood, sunset & boulevard.
2. you can see lot of surfing scene in this movie. I don't surf but i can but surfer guys is my weakness plus blond shaggy hair though the only blond shaggy hair was Cody, the lil boy, haha! ;)
3. the film score was good. i like all the music in the movie.
4. finally, the cast are damn hot. I wish they're real gays. seriously.


Lets go to the main course. Trevor Wright who play Zach is a art college student who wants to pursue his dreams but he's broke. He's helping his sister who had a baby named Cody & left by her husband to do lots of stuff & to save money. He like to skate & to surf. yummy! His style is a hoodie boy & jeans. A real Cali guy. :)
While Brad Rowe who plays his love interest Shaun is a rich kid who's the brother of his best friend Gabe back to California.
Every scene is a-must-see, breathe taking scenes. Its not that vulgar, its more on a smooth sexual scene. There's no anal scene unlike the other gay theme film. Only filatio. The angles of the movie is great.
You can really feel the true love in their acting. The contact of their eyes are amazing. They are great artist though this is the breakthrough acting of Trevor wright. Zach's smile is PRICELESS!!!

While Im watching this movie, I said to myself "Too bad it never happened in real life." :(
But i said to myself again, No, it will happened soon.
Can I still find a man in my life for the rest of my life?
or I'll just die old & single? Creepy! You don't know what happen next. I'm not making rush into things but the clock is ticking.
I remembered Murillo , a Brazilian friend. He said that in a gay relationship for 9 months is like a 5 years in a straight relationship. Its very true. Really.


I need to sleep. I wish my dream take me to Neverland with Zach. He's the hottest.
So I can't drink vodka anymore. <3333333333>

ohhhhh shoottttttt!

at last, my lovas!
kate moss is my icon when it comes in fashion plus gaspard is my sex slave!!! yes, sex slave!

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just for now, believe me

After a not-so-yummy pasta made by my sister, a can of soda & a laugh trip w/ Apollo, still I don't know what's wrong with me & my pre-attempted rush smile. A fair weather makes Piazza Navona a paradise while me, sitting here still not actually doing anything productive. I try to entertain myself & think something unimpaired thoughts; so go ahead & speak.

With my trashy look, a very untamed hair & a scorching tempo:

Right now I should unpack my bag because the Venice trip canceled and it will be resumed on the 1st week of September. Good thing, because my mood doesn't fit right now but gondolas are pretty cool.

Right now I should charge my phone because it was off for 4 days. Crap!

Right now I should find my long lost scarf who gave by my best friend.

Right now I should call Bud because i will stay in their house for a couple of days without drama.

Right now I should call Marco about the work he'll give me. Alas! Money not dime.

Right now I should go to a salon & treat myself though everything seems so unclear.

Right now I should get a fork & stick it to my eyes & twirl it.

It seems that I go with the flow; but I missed those period when everything seems so perfect & bed is my throne. Worry free. Not being a paranoid & times when cross one's mind.

When all else fails I can have an affair with this shiny bottle of Vodka sitting next to me. An affair that will take you to a rapture & when you know that, thats the idea where you can fuck your boyfriend's brain for a 10 hour session. Believe me. No joke. Everybody wants their other half completely intoxicated, right?